Last post ko na ito dahil lilipat na ako ng blogger! kainis na tong friendster eh! hahahaha. anyway it was a blast having this to supplement my innermost thoughts.
see you on the flipside!
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ang tagal na ng last post ko hehe. i guess i should update.
what i’ve been upto the last few weeks:
not a lot of thinking. well, not a lot of mental exercise. hehe.
I’m happy to say that I’ve met a new bunch of friends! thanks PI 100 and Sarj! finally life isn’t routine anymore! =D i’ve been dying to meet someone new last march, mabuti nalang anjan si Sarj, she introduced me to Sali ako a social experiment. hehe. sali narin kayo!
as of now, i’m preparing for 12MN, 30 mins pa! I wish it works! haha. for the past few days i’ve been thinking a lot. but most of it has been worrying for my grades, and such. i just want to live in the ‘now’. yeah, it’s good to be wary of the past and future, but hey! once that second leaves, it gone forever! you cant bring it back! so why waste it by preparing for something that’s already done or wont happen yet? live life now!
I’ve been having some strange dreams lately. maybe it’s brought about by stress and repression of things. sheeesh. i really need to let loose, get a girlfriend.
I think it’s safe to say, I can now commit. =D
Onga pala!! I want a tiki torch! so bad! a pair would do me well. hehe.
Ayan, gusto ko na pumunta sa beach. just forget everything else. malapit na. hehehe. mejo late ang vacation ko pero ayos lang does it matter? =D
where are you anyway? come back quick!
After a day of recuperation, I’m afraid that I am not myself anymore. hehe
I just finished taking up the NMAT exam. Simply put, it’s an exam to
determine of you’re legible for medicine or not. A percntile (or rank)
of above 95 says you’re going to be a doctor, but it doesnt say you’re
going to be a good one. You have to go to some of the circles of hell
and back, then through the great depression and finally when you think
it’s all over, judgement day arrives. haha. I guess it all boils down
to courage and determination.
Today, I’m living out may 2nd and last day of vacation. Since tomorrow
will be the start of my summer classes, it would not be a vacatoin
anymore. hack.
Right now, I just want to get away with a great book. Immerse myself
between all the lines and letters, oblivious to the rest. If not, just
be somewhere reaaally peaceful or cold.
Still I wonder what if things where the opposite, would it be better or
worse? will I gain or lose something? will I feel pain or pleasure?
wierd.
Why do you still loathe? hate? why? everything is practically thrown to
your face yet you seem to look away pretending not to see everything.
I’ve made my share of mistakes.
To end or begin, it will not be long from now, it depends on what one wants to happen.
Uy oo nga pala, you guys, punta kayo sa LB Square this friday @ 7pm.
Watch our band perform! yehey! 1st gig of the year! (is it? hehe. cant
remember. haha)
After a day of recuperation, I’m afraid that I am not myself anymore. hehe
I just finished taking up the NMAT exam. Simply put, it’s an exam to determine of you’re legible for medicine or not. A percntile (or rank) of above 95 says you’re going to be a doctor, but it doesnt say you’re going to be a good one. You have to go to some of the circles of hell and back, then through the great depression and finally when you think it’s all over, judgement day arrives. haha. I guess it all boils down to courage and determination.
Today, I’m living out may 2nd and last day of vacation. Since tomorrow will be the start of my summer classes, it would not be a vacatoin anymore. hack.
Right now, I just want to get away with a great book. Immerse myself between all the lines and letters, oblivious to the rest. If not, just be somewhere reaaally peaceful or cold.
Still I wonder what if things where the opposite, would it be better or worse? will I gain or lose something? will I feel pain or pleasure? wierd.
Why do you still loathe? hate? why? everything is practically thrown to your face yet you seem to look away pretending not to see everything.
I’ve made my share of mistakes.
To end or begin, it will not be long from now, it depends on what one wants to happen.
Uy oo nga pala, you guys, punta kayo sa LB Square this friday @ 7pm. Watch our band perform! yehey! 1st gig of the year! (is it? hehe. cant remember. haha) See you soon! =D
This poem was from Sarj, almost eight years ago. =)
after all you’ve said
after all you’ve done
i still care for you
even now you’re gone
after all these time
after all this pain
you’re still here
stucked up in my brain
after all this misery
I’ve been trying to hide
I guess this feeling
just won’t subside
i know this should stop
coz I’ve had enough
i’d try to be strong
though i’m not that tough
but how can i get up
and try hard not to fall
when deep inside i know..
i still love you…after all
hm? =D
Marami pa ako dapat gawin pero siyempre hindi ko parin ginagwa.
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naiinis na ako. actually ang tagal na. nangyari na ba sa iyo ung isang instance na meron kang gustong bagay na mag-work pero due to the things around us and some really stupid stupid reasons, it doesnt work? you try your best and give it dozens of "cguro next time or cguro this time it will" , you searched so hard and so deep on your side that it just occured to you that the problem might have been on the other side?
the most irritating thing is,
after a few lifetimes, you suddenly see it wanting to work, wanting so much, wanting all those things you wanted to work before.
blind. cold. eyes wide shut. ears stuffed with cement.
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I feel.. no, actually i don’t.
it’s just so irritating nowadays, everything’s superficial. everything’s silly, lahat tayo’y naglolokohan lang. i mean, why do we even bother doing this if it just means ending up in a heap of garbage eh?
right now i see everything full of "it". bah.
it’s just so annoying, i miss the spontaneity, i miss having to just sit and wait and letting the world come to you. no i’m not lazy, i just thought that everything was a two-way thing. apparently, it isn’t. that’s annoying and obviously impartial.
could all this be my fault? yeah i think so, i’d blame myself for having to cope with this kind of environment. I want to leave, never be heard from again by anyone, and start a new life in Europe.
Hello hello!
I still have hang-overs back from the start of the new year. I mean, things really have changed. And when I say change, I mean change.
Things that I never dreamed of doing were done for the first, second, and nth time already. I did’nt do such things before because I did not have a strong enough reason to do so, or it just isnt right to do. There are two sides in a mountain, one is really wet because of the clouds ascending the mountain and condenses, another one is really dry, since all the water molecules in the clouds were already used up. I can now officially say that I have been to both sides. =)
Nakakainis, last year, I said that things were moving a lot quickly than it should be. This year was not an exception, in fact, it went about faster.. I hate it so.
How was your valentine’s day? anything interesting? =) I’m happy because ang gastos ko lang nung araw na iyon ay henna tattoos worth 100pesos (dapat 50 lang, eh na-danggil nung lalaki habang basa pa! umulit tuloy ako! argh, but people’s reactions were well worth the money. hahaha) by the way, tingnan mo na rin sa pictures ko. pina-henna ko ung pangalan mo sa kamay ko. =) Nung buhay highschool pa ako nun, lagi flowers at letters pinagkakaabalahan ko, haha, ngayon, buti nalang at hindi na masyado, ndi na masyado kelangan, although I think I should buy some tomorrow. hahahahaha.
I’m really confused, but even though I am, I like it, but I hate it, but it’s really something else. hahaha. This is a first. let’s see what happens.
I think this would be the most pinakapanget post, hindi siya poetic. nakakainis, febfair kicked the literary stuff out my butt. hahaha
"The universe tends to unravel it’s self." -An african american
As I weave through countless people, I occasionally find someone who will pour out their life drop by drop to me.
Each stranger turns to an acquaintance eventually into a friend.
Everyone has their own interesting story, we just need to keep silent and listen. And listen I did, thank you Will.
Unlike school, I need not notes on what I’m listening about, you just learn something about that person every time that person talks and you listen.
Before you do anything else, you should first think about what you will do, would be of any good or benevolence? what is it for? is it necessary? what good will come out of it? what do you want to prove? what would happen afterwards? will you regret it?
I really need to focus on this one, this is something very delicate. i’d feel like a slithering jerk afterwards, but then, something is pushing me forward. i dont know what would happen afterwards. is it worth it? i’d like to help. to relieve burdens, to bring joy, to love. yet, something is holding me back. things might not be the same afterwards. things might just *poof* vanish to thin air. maybe failure or rejection could be my enemy, a friend of my fears.
but then, could there be some light in all of this? hope perhaps? would it be enough to push me towards the goal? i could only speculate and say no. but then again, would it be impossible? i say no. It might be painful and difficult, but hey, an achievement through hard work is sweeter than something you didn’t work for at all.
maybe it would not be a loss completely. something else might be learned. something better might be gained. who knows?
should the Leap of Faith be taken? I’d toss a coin. =)
its a lot like keeping yourself in a really splendid house. but when you step out, you find more beautiful things that you could ever imagine. but as you go farther from your house, you find out that it isnt all that its cracked up to be. things get dangerous, scary and unpleasant.
something’s up. oh please not this. its waaaay too precious to be broken
i want to mend that broken piece of valuable treasure
everything comes at a price;
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